As I've said before, I'm starting the process of getting a divorce. Definitely not what I pictured myself ever having to do. Question: why does it take $30 to get a marriage license and 1 second to say "I do" but so much more time and money to get a divorce. I understand that it's to deter people from getting divorced but maybe they should make it harder to get married instead. I have so many anxieties about getting divorced, not that we have any property to divide. I'm anxious about how this will affect the children. My son is only 2 1/2 years old but he's very perceptive. I don't want to go through a nasty divorce because the only people it'll hurt is the children. I want them to live as normal lives as possible. I don't want them to remember their parents fighting all the time when they grow up. I want them to see that me and their father were still able to get along even though we were no longer happy together.
I have started dating since I separated from my husband. I actually knew Carlos about eight months before I even met my husband and everything was going great between me and him. I think back now and ask myself, "why did I ever leave him?" I realize that at the time, it wasn't meant to be...yet. Now, five years later he has a beautiful daughter and I have my two beautiful children and we've reconnected. The only problem now is that we live in two different cities. We plan on moving in together sometime next year and I can't wait for us all to be together. He makes me feel so good about myself, always telling me how beautiful and amazing I am. I have never felt this good about myself and I can't believe how happy I am sometimes. Sometimes it feels like a dream and I feel like I have to pinch myself. I really couldn't ask for more in my life....except maybe world peace. haha. I love him so much and I'm the happiest I've been in a really long time. This year, so much has changed in my life. I separated from my husband and am getting a divorce, I had a beautiful baby girl and I have a wonderful man in my life. Going into the new years and celebrating with everyone that I love. It will be the best new years I have ever had. My new years resolution: just to be happy. And I don't see any way that couldn't happen. Life is good, and I'm taking one day at a time. And everyday, my life seems to be getting better and I feel more and more happy.
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